I set my alarm to ring at 5:45 A.M. Is this early enough? Maybe I should set it to go off at 5:30 A.M.? No, 5:45 A.M. is fine. I went to bed jittery with anticipation. I tossed and turned. Maybe I should just stay up a while and just wait? I am not good with the waiting game. I hate to wait and I hate late!
I finally fell asleep for the next thing I knew it was 5:20 A.M. I woke up even before the alarm went off. I went straight to the kitchen and told the surprised Jean (for I usually get up at 6:45 am) what to cook for breakfast and what to pack for snacks. Having done the morning instructions I proceeded to my little nook and turned on the computer.
Now the actual wait begins.
I started to hear movements and voices indicating that the rest of the household is waking up too. I was so tempted to leave my fort and go see what is happening. No. I have to maintain my position ready to pounce anytime now. I stayed glued. Refreshing my view every now and then. Anytime now. I can do this. I know I can. My right hand was steady. My left hand fidgety. It does not matter. I only need one steady hand.
"Mom? We're leaving" chorused my four out of five kids. What am I to do? Do I leave my fort to bid my kids good bye or do I stay and continue my watch? I have to see them off. My son won't be back until Friday night.
I hurriedly left my stance and sprinted to the dining room to say bye-bye to my kids. Goodbye, bye-bye, see-you-friday-pleasechangeyourbeddings-tc! I was off my post for not more than 5 minutes. Hurriedly I went back in front of my computer, held the mouse and clicked on the refresh icon. Crap! Gray areas! I just missed five freaking opportunities again!
The wait begins... anew.
I finally fell asleep for the next thing I knew it was 5:20 A.M. I woke up even before the alarm went off. I went straight to the kitchen and told the surprised Jean (for I usually get up at 6:45 am) what to cook for breakfast and what to pack for snacks. Having done the morning instructions I proceeded to my little nook and turned on the computer.
Now the actual wait begins.
I started to hear movements and voices indicating that the rest of the household is waking up too. I was so tempted to leave my fort and go see what is happening. No. I have to maintain my position ready to pounce anytime now. I stayed glued. Refreshing my view every now and then. Anytime now. I can do this. I know I can. My right hand was steady. My left hand fidgety. It does not matter. I only need one steady hand.
"Mom? We're leaving" chorused my four out of five kids. What am I to do? Do I leave my fort to bid my kids good bye or do I stay and continue my watch? I have to see them off. My son won't be back until Friday night.
I hurriedly left my stance and sprinted to the dining room to say bye-bye to my kids. Goodbye, bye-bye, see-you-friday-pleasechangeyourbeddings-tc! I was off my post for not more than 5 minutes. Hurriedly I went back in front of my computer, held the mouse and clicked on the refresh icon. Crap! Gray areas! I just missed five freaking opportunities again!
The wait begins... anew.